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Letting Go: May’s Motto

1 May

Happy May Day!  How did you celebrate?  Did you dance around the maypole?  Construct crowns out of flowers?  Or play hookie in honor of the once honored holiday?  I spent a good bit of the day in self-reflection, a tradition of mine as I near my birthday.  I have had an incredible urge to lighten the load on my shoulders recently, and today seemed like the perfect day to finally talk about it.

Over the past few months I have struggled to understand my difficulty in bouncing back from this winter’s health complications which have left me in a funk.  This is grossly out of character for me as I could sleep off a morning attack and pull myself together in less than 8 hours to dance the night away with my friends in college.  Now, I am still picking up the pieces and adjusting to new medication, sleeping habits and food limitations.  OK, Litz, stop. right. there!  Did I seriously just compare my almost 29-year-old self to my 19-year-old college self?  At least I’m laughing at myself over that one…

It wasn’t until recently that I realized I was trying to bounce back to the person I once was, sometimes many years ago.  While focusing on finding remission, I lost sight of the rest of myself.  I forgot to allow myself to mature and change.  I forgot to embrace who I am today – live in the moment.  I found myself held back by who I was in the past, and I never saw it happen.

Don’t get the wrong idea, it is not as if I am some crazy hoarder, buried alive by every piece of trash from my past (I may have watched a few too many episodes of Hoarders recently).  I simply forgot to take out the trash spiritually.  Oh, and it wasn’t a wasted effort either.  I am, for the most part, in remission! THANK GOD!  Now, if I could just get through the trigger experimental phase, I just might be able to find it completely… and dare I say it… stay there!?

Issue: Known.  Cause: Found.  Solution: On the way.

It is time to let go.  Let go of who I was to make room for who I am, who I can be.  Let go of the hurt in my life and allow the positive to replace it.  Let go of what has been for what could be.  What do you need to let go of?  My list is long, I have my work cut out for me, but I am excited for this new Journey to Find Litz.

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